got a good song!

being jaded because too much sucks moments in life lately
too much blame by another people's job, it's like i'm the one who's wrong
and can't anybody just come to see how much pressure i got here...
and feel broken heart 
then feel in love again
got a good song from 

Benyamin S- Hujan Gerimis

Eh ujan gerimis aje

Ikan lele ada kumisnye

Eh jangan menangis aje

Kalo boleh cari gantinye

Mengapa ujan gerimis aje?

Pergi berlayar ke tanjung cina

Mengapa adek menangis aje

Kalo memang jodo ngga kemana, hei hei

Eh ujan gerimis aje

Ikan bawal diasinin

Eh jangan menangis aje

Bulan syawal mau dikawinin

Mau dikawinin jangan nangis

Bepedak namanya

Yah, entar kaya celepuk dong

Mengapa ujan gerimis aje

Pergi berlayar ke tanjung cina

Mengapa adek menangis aje

Kalo memang jodo ngga kemana, hei hei

Jalan jalan ke menado

Jangan lupa membeli parang

Kalo niat mencari jodo

Cari yang hitam seperti saya (ah masa)

i know i'm not really good at english but let me translate this song (in english)

hey mizzle come so often

cat fish got some whiskers

hey don't cry so often

if possible look some to replace

why mizzle come so often?

go sailing to China harbour

why are you crying so often?

if he's really your mate the he'll won't go

hey hey!

hey mizzle come so often

the pomfret fish were get salted

eh don't cry so often

in Syawal you'll be married

"Mau dikawinin jangan nangis

Bepedak namanya

Yah, entar kaya celepuk dong"

Walking down to Manado

don't forget to buy chopping knife

if you really want to find your mate

look for the black skin guy like me (oh really?)

isn't that song  really consoling?
for the broken hearted soul
for them who were really in jaded condition
let's laugh

don't drift away

buy the things you need, not because the trend case
wear a thing when you need it, to gain confidence, to make some things easier in life, not to make your life harder
you like it? you want it? you've got the money, just buy
if you don't have some money? maybe you don't really need it...


for the sake of happiness, brain, and friendship...
be yourself

Rinduku adalah Rindu Mu

Allah Maha Tahu, Maha Melihat, Maha Mendengar....

ucapkanlah Alhamdulillah untuk setiap keputusan- Nya.

Yang ku anggap buruk belum tentu buruk, yang ku anggap baik belum tentu baik...

Hanya kepada- Nya kita berlindung.

Dan semoga dosa - dosa kita semua dihapuskan

Kita ganti dengan amal ibadah yang baik...

amin...

Ya Allah... Aku yakin semua yang terjadi padaku adalah bentuk kasih sayang-Mu...

Kau sadarkan aku walau sejenak kau pernah membiarkan aku tersesat...

Bukankah itu semua agar aku sadar... 

Bahwa engkau akan selalu ada untuk memantau aku...

Terimakasih Allah... Kau menyelamatkan aku sebelum semuanya terlambat...

Aku merasakan....

Aku mendengarkan lewat hatiku,,,

Cinta itu selalu ada,,, bagi orang orang yang selalu percaya pada-Mu ya Rabbi....

Rinduku adalah rindu Mu, Ya Allah,,,

Alhamdulillah...

quit!

I have decided to quit my job, since I don't think my duties are suitable to my qualifications.

I've been trying everyday to love the job but that always been too difficult, i can't really put my heart on it.  I've been thinkin'.... maybe I'm not meant for the job and there must be someone better in it... who will really love it because she/he had the spare brain or maybe love calculation.

Many things... the additional jobs that makes me leave my main job which i realy love. I live for drawing... That's my ambition and i can't live without it. And it feels like being blocked from my way to my dream... Or there will be another way but i don't want to through the unpleasant way...

Good bye my hell office..............

There is no way for u to abuse me because i can do many things and let me do another person's job because i'm a new employe... No please... No... Perhaps if you increase my salary but you don't...

it's not about salary indeed..

but i live for my dream...

Because i have a dream and my life is according to my dreams...

I have a dream to be pursued...

my quote of the day

"great thing takes time"

"God creates anything in a blink of an eye and we can ask God to make our wishes come faster for good"

"i love you, that's my right"

"pretend that we're not pretending a happiness. Happiness is real... as real as our thoughts"

"If i can't get what i want. That means i don't really want it, i just pretending to want it to love it but i don't. Because when i want it... i will really put it on my unconscious mind"

"the power of mind is really exist..."

"Nothing can love you more than God does"

"God please solve my problem. And then... i keep doing what i really want, not what i don't really want"

"why so serious, life is just a game... Lose or earn, that's just God's plan..."

"Did you know? Allah will erased your mistakes and doesn't left it on you even just as small as one dot in 1x1pixel... if you're change and try to purify your soul"

"I don't want to hate anyone, i'd rather stay away from them"

Berarti untuk sesama

Pada dasarnya manusia adalah makhluk sosial. Se-introvert apapun dia pasti butuh teman, butuh perhatian.

Mengapa manusia butuh perhatian? Karena manusia tidak luput dari permasalahan...

Kita hidup masing masing dengan keperluan masing masing, tapi sesungguhnya kita semua terkait satu sama lain. Jadi ucapkanlah yang baik (i slap my face for this), posting hal yang baik, berikan respon yang baik dan membangun.

Kita dapat mematikan semangat oranglain dan dapat juga menumbuhkannya. Tapi untuk apa kita mematikan semangat orang lain? apakah masalah persaingan? bukankan menang  atau kalah tergantung nasib dan kekuatan pikiran masing masing?

Tidak masalah jika saya harus me-like beribu ribu page jika memang saya melihat itu sesuatu yang baik. Tidak etis sepertinya jika berkunjung ke blog oranglain lalu pergi begitu saja tanpa meninggalkan kesan dan membiarkan begitu saja. Dimana jiwa sosial itu? satu kata saja, mungkin dapat memberi encouragement bagi orang lain.... Kritik yang membangun akan lebih berguna daripada hanya diam. Sekedar memberi senyuman yang hanya terdiri dari simbol 'titik dua' dan 'kurung tutup' mungkin? :)

Kita semua bisa berarti bagi setiap orang, membangun semangat dan percaya diri setiap orang, lalu apa kita akan tetap tidak peduli dengan orang lain yang mungkin dalam standard qualifikasi kita tidak memenuhi syarat?

Sejak sekarang, terlintas dibenak saya, semakin banyak saya membahagiakan orang lain, saya semakin bahagia. Jika saya secara tidak sengaja membuka web untuk sebuah kebutuhan, dan apa yan disajikan tidak sesuai keinginan saya, disanalah letak peran saya sebagai seorang Commentator... Sebuah takdir peran yang harus dijalani.